I worked with someone once, a senior consultant, who landed the biggest contract of his career. The kind of win his whole team had been chasing for over a year.
He told me what it actually felt like. Not pride. Not the moment he’d imagined. Relief, and only relief, followed within about ten minutes by opening his laptop to start the next proposal.
That gap between what a win is supposed to feel like and what it actually felt like is what we’re exploring this week.
Excellence and Approval-Seeking Look Identical
Here’s what makes approval-seeking so persistent in high performers. It hides in plain sight, because it looks exactly like excellence.
The work is good. The results are real. The person is reliable, driven, admired by most people who know them. Nothing on the surface says anything is wrong. There’s no external signal, because the strategy works. It produces results. The world rewards the very behaviour that’s quietly costing the person something.
Genuine ambition and approval-seeking can look identical from outside. The difference is entirely internal, and it shows up in one specific place.
Watch What Happens After a Win
The tell is what you feel afterwards.
If the feeling is satisfaction, something was expressed. If the feeling is relief, something was avoided. Relief means a threat was dodged, not a value realised, and relief fades fast, which is exactly why the next thing has to start almost immediately. That consultant wasn’t lazy or ungrateful. He was simply moving on to the next round of the same avoidance, before the relief wore off and the threat felt live again.
Ask yourself, after your last significant achievement: was the dominant feeling satisfaction, or relief? It’s worth taking a proper moment over that question rather than answering on reflex.
Avoidance, Not Applause
This is the part people miss about themselves.
Plenty of high performers will tell you, and mean it, that they don’t care about praise. They’re often right. What they’re actually chasing is the absence of disapproval. Not being judged, found lacking, or exposed.
Same root. Different feel. Avoiding disapproval feels like diligence and high standards, which makes it considerably harder to spot than a straightforward hunger for applause.
A few mechanisms keep this running. Worth becomes contingent on output, so it has to be re-earned constantly. The goalposts move, because approval never banks, and each achievement simply resets the baseline. Eventually you stop needing real people in the room at all. You carry the approving, or withholding, figure around with you and perform for them regardless. And one piece of critical feedback tends to outweigh ten pieces of praise, because the critical one confirms the fear that was already running underneath.
Two Distinctions Worth Holding
The goal here isn’t to stop caring what anyone thinks. That’s not health. It’s a different kind of defence, and it comes with its own cost.
Being responsive to feedback is fine. Needing approval to feel acceptable is the actual problem.
There’s a second distinction worth naming. Approval-seeking is often narrowly targeted. Someone can be genuinely indifferent to most people’s opinions while still desperate for the regard of one specific figure, usually some version of whoever originally set the terms. “I don’t care what people think” can be entirely true and still miss the point.
There’s a third version too, and it’s an easy one to fall into. Some people become approval-seeking about not being approval-seeking. Wanting to be seen as the independent one, the person who doesn’t need validation. Same mechanism, pointed at a more flattering target.
Where This Was Heading All Along
Approval-seeking usually gets mistaken for ambition, a sign you’re on the right track. What it actually does is stop real progress, because attention keeps landing on what other people think of your achievements.
Here’s the detail worth taking seriously. Other people aren’t fully aware of your goals. They aren’t heading where you’re heading. They don’t carry your best interests the way you do. Placing real weight on their approval is, at best, meaningless, and at worst, actively costly.
This is the pattern beneath the pattern this month has been tracing. Standards that never confirm enough. A voice mistaken for truth. A verdict, not a perspective. And underneath all of it, a strategy built early, for good reason, that quietly kept running long after the reasons disappeared.
A few questions worth taking proper time over, not answering on the spot. Whose approval, specifically, would make this feel like enough? Is that person even in the room any more? If no one ever knew you’d done it, would you still want to? Where do you notice yourself performing, rather than expressing?
This month’s Overachievers Club series, The Perfectionism Trap, has been building toward exactly this handoff. Next month, The Approval Pattern picks up directly where this leaves off, going considerably further into acting from internal authority rather than borrowed verdicts.
If you’d rather start with something lighter, The Overachiever Archetype quiz is a useful first step.
Connected Podcast Episode
028 – Approval-Seeking in High Performers
After your last big achievement, did you feel satisfied or just relieved? Discover why that difference reveals more than almost anything else.
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